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Getting my run on.

I Am Not In Control

of my weight.  I just have to realize that.  I’ve done pretty well this last week.  Yes, there was some Halloween candy but I got in my work outs and ate pretty well.  On Saturday the scale said 160.0.  I may have to go back to counting calories, making sure I get enough since I’m still nursing, because this eating pretty good and getting my workouts in is not doing the job right now.  I’m not going to make my Black Friday weight goal.  I’m confident I’ll get all my workouts in this week so that I’ll only have missed one this whole time.  I’m hoping I can count that as success and still get my reward.  Pam?  Mark?  What do you think?

Either a food log or back to calorie counting.  I’m going to have to do that if I want to drop pounds.  Maybe I’m eating more than I think I am?

I’ve fallen…into a bucket of Halloween candy.  And I can’t seem to extricate myself from it.  Feeling a pang of hunger?  Stuff face with “fun” size Snickers.  Annoyed with husband?  Feed feelings with Butterfinger.  Bored and don’t want to do chores?  Waste time by eating Kit Kat, M&M’s or Reese’s PB Cup.

I also skipped my Saturday workout, only getting in two workouts last week.  Granted those two workouts totaled 115 minutes in total which isn’t too bad but still – not good enough.

My weight on Saturday morning was 159.6.  That’s one pound less than at the start of the challenge but it’s still 3 pounds from my challenge goal.  And I now have less than two weeks until the challenge ends.

I need to stop the candy eating, start the exercising again and just generally kick my ass back into gear.  Help?  Please?

Week 2 Check-in

Week 2.

Saturday morning I weighed in at 160.6.  Sunday and today I also weighed in at 160.6.  My scale seems to like 160.6 and 161.2.  I’ve seen a lot of those two numbers lately.  What I haven’t seen much of?  159.anything.  Gah.  I had one day in the 150′s and then went back up to 160.6.  Whatever 160′s.  I hate you and never want to see you again.  You’re ruining my life!  (*cue slamming door*)

OK, fine.  I’ll stop being a petulant teenager.  I worked out the required minimum of 3 times last week.  I had my eating in check 95% of the week.  I biked and ellipticaled on Tuesday.  I was going to bike on the trainer again on Thursday but my nether regions were a bit sore from Tuesday so I hopped off and just ellipticaled again.  Turns out when you ignore the bike for two months you lose the ability to sit on it for more than 30 minutes without pain.  Huh.  Who knew!  I’ll get back on it this Tuesday again so I can build up that bike stamina once more.  Saturday I shredded it with Jillian.  She kicked my ass.  Push-ups?  Suck.  Shoulder presses?  Yuck.  Jumping jacks?  Ick.  But, I did  it.  James joined me too.  Now that is cute – little three year old jumping jacks.  Sunday I woke up stiff and sore.  I’m still a bit sore today but not too bad.  I hope that my Saturday morning routine while Kris is at work will continue to be” eat breakfast, play with kids, put baby down for nap, shred, shower, baby wake up from nap, resume rest of day” for a while now.  It worked pretty well.

And now let’s talk Halloween for a bit.  Candy.  Oh, candy.  We have three full buckets of candy at home plus at least four bags of unopened candy too.  I could return the unopened bags but well, no.  So, I need to have a plan.  We have enough candy to last us months and months but if I’m not careful it won’t see Thanksgiving.  Yikes.  So, my plan is this – one piece of any candy I want a day.  I’m not a saint.  I’m going to eat it.  But I don’t have to go crazy either.  So, one piece – savor it – and then plan my craving for the next day.  Will it be a Reese’s PB Cup?  A Snickers fun size?  How about a mini Twix?  100 Grand?  Yum. The rule with the kids is they get one piece a day after dinner and only if they eat all their dinner.  I think that’s a good rule to employ for myself too.

Anyway, Pam and Mark – how did your week go?

And everybody – what is your plan with the Halloween candy?


I’ve finally done it.  I’ve broken the 160 pound barrier.  Today Levi is six months old and I’ve been trying for months now to shed some baby weight.  Today I finally broke through 160 and saw a 159.4 on the scale this morning.  I kept getting down to 160.6 and then bouncing back up again.  I don’t know if there was a mental barrier or what but I’m glad to have finally broken through it.  It’s up to me to keep it under 160 now.  And with Halloween and candy right around the corner, it’s not going to be easy!  Yikes!

One of the reasons I wanted to do this Black Friday Challenge (and not just to kick my butt back into gear again) was so I could finally fit into some of my clothes again.  I put the maternity clothes away long ago but I’ve been relegated to a very small portion of my closet to find clothes that fit me.  I have literally 4 pairs of work pants and three pair of jeans that I can squeeze into right now.  Oh, and I dislike 3 of the 4 pair of work pants.  It’s made for some extremely frustrating mornings trying to get dressed for work.  Casual clothing is not much better.  I basically hate getting dressed at all right now.  But there are 6 other pair of work pants and 3 more pairs of jeans that I could wear if I lost just another 5-10 pounds.  Oh, the possibilities of outfits!  Yes, I’d like some new clothes anyways (I haven’t bought myself much in the last 15 months) but just being able to wear anything in my closet?  Now that sounds like heaven.

Week 1 Check-In

We’re about a week and a half into the Black Friday Challenge.  Time to check in!

Working out:  On track!  I got in three last week and I plan to get in three work outs this week.  They’ve all been elliptical work outs so far so I’m hoping to bring my bike in from the garage so I can get to some spinning too.

Weight:  161.2.  Yeah.  I’ve gained 0.6 pounds.  Suck!  I’ve made some less than stellar choices this week so I know I can do better there.  I’ve been better about the no eating after 7pm rule though.  If I can make better choices between 7am and 7pm then I know I can lose the four (0.6) pounds that I want to for this challenge.  Maybe I’ll start a little eating log for myself so I can remember what I’ve all stuffed my face with on any given day.

How about you?  Are you meeting your goals?

Black Friday Challenge

I don’t even know where I’m going right now on the fitness front.  Working out has been relegated to a low priority which means it is not getting done.  Sometimes I’m going to bed early instead since the baby has had a runny nose and is getting up more often.  Sometimes I’m choosing to watch television (hello Glee!) instead.  Sometimes I’m busy with household tasks like cleaning, paying bills, laundry, etc.  If I truly want to get healthy and stay healthy then I have to make working out a priority at least a few times a week.  I’m not currently doing that.  Any ideas?  Other than, you know, just do it already and quit talking about it.

I guess I haven’t hit that low yet though.  You know the one where you feel crappy enough, fed up enough, sausage-like enough to finally do something?  Yes, I’m unhappy with my post baby body.  Yes, I want to be able to go out and run a 5K at the drop of a hat.  Yes, I want exercise to be a normal daily activity akin to doing the dishes and brushing my teeth.  It’s not right now though and I’m having a hard time finding the motivation to make it that way.  I’m so tired in the evenings that the last thing I want to do is go to the basement and exert any more energy.  I’d much rather lay on the couch and watch TV or sit at the computer or go to sleep early.  It’s just not happening.

Maybe I need to re-think my strategy.  Maybe I need to leave my evenings to my family – taking care of my children, taking care of my home, taking care of my husband and make the mornings all about me?  Maybe I need to try and get up at 5am a few times a week so I can head to the basement and get some me time in.  I do like working out in the mornings.  It energizes me for the rest of the day.  I eat better when I don’t want to “undo” all the hard work of that morning.  And I don’t have to go all hardcore and get up at 5am every day.  Two – three days a week should be sufficient if I can also be determined enough to get a workout or two in during the weekend.

Maybe I also need to make some short term goals for myself.  If I have something to work for where I can see results quickly instead of long term goals like do a triathlon, maybe I can use that as motivation to get to work.  I was toying with the idea of doing Jillian’s 30 Day Shred every day for a month as a jump start but realistically I would be setting myself up to fail.  I just do not have the time or more importantly the energy to do a workout every day.  I would like to incorporate that video in once a week or so though.

As you can tell I’m kind of working this all out as I write.  Blogging at its finest, huh?  OK, I’m setting some goals and giving myself a reward if I meet them.


1.       Work out at least three times per week from 10/10/10 to 11/20/10.  This is a period of six weeks.  (I, uh, need to get three workouts in this week and it’s already Wednesday to make this goal.  I can do it!)

2.       Lose four pounds from 10/13/10 to 11/20/10.  My weight this morning was 160.4 and I’m using that as my starting point.  On 11/20/10 I need to weigh in at 156.4 or less.  Since I’m still breastfeeding I can’t be too restrictive with my calories.  Plus breastfeeding and hormones are a little out of my control right now – my body is not entirely my own – so I’m setting what I think is a realistic goal of four pounds in five and a half weeks.  That should be doable I think.


1.       Spend $50 on new clothes for myself.  I rarely buy myself new clothes right now due to budget reasons plus just, well, putting myself last so I can get everything my kids need first.  I’m giving myself permission (and working it into the November budget) to spend a bit of money on myself in November.  I don’t want to go crazy here because this is still an interim weight and size.  I should be able to get a new pair of pants or a sweater or something for $50.  Especially if I go shopping on Black Friday!

Hopefully giving myself this little challenge will be the shot in the arm that I need to once again make exercise a priority in my life.  Would you like to join me?  Is there something you’d like to do better?  Eat more real food?  Less processed?  Lose x amount of pounds?  Exercise goals?  A new distance?  Pace?  Other?  Please add your own personal challenge with goals (SMART goals!) and personal reward in the comments.  If others sign up, I can do weekly status updates where we can each report our progress too!

When I was last here to spill my guts I admitted that I skipped my Tuesday night work out.  And I promised to work out on Wednesday and Thursday to make up for it.  I am now here to admit to you that I only did half of what I promised (3/4 maybe?)/.  I did work out on Wednesday evening.  I did 45 minutes on the elliptical.  The awesome thing?  Kris spent 30 minutes on the bike trainer next to me.  It was actually pretty cool to work out together.  We usually do it separately because our paces are so different.  Maybe we can do more of that in the future.

Then last night though instead of working out I went out with my friends.  Eight of us sitting around a table talking.  It doesn’t really get much better, ya know?  I’m lucky to have such a big group of friends.  But it was either wine night with the girls or a basement workout.  I chose my girls.  How about if I strive for a workout on Saturday and Sunday to make up for my slacking off this week?  Then I can get back to Tuesday/Thursday next week.

Here is my official invitation.  I haven’t talked to Kris about this yet but we both want to do some triathlons next year.  One triathlon I’d like to do is the Waconia Triathlon.  Kris has done this one before (in 2004 when I was pregnant with Annika).  It’s a good race in a great town (heh – my hometown) put on by a good group.  Want to do the race with me (us)?  Here is my peer pressure in return.  I got my friends to try duathlon this summer.  Can I talk any of you into trying a sprint triathlon with me next summer?  The race is June 26, 2011 and registration opens in December.  Come on…it will be fun!

Speaking of fun.  Have you been following the happenings at Interbike this week?  I’ve been following it via articles at Slowtwitch and DC Rainmaker.  It looks so fun!  I’d love to try some cyclocross or mountain biking in the desert.  Weird, huh, since I don’t really like riding my road bike very much?  Anyway, there’s been lots of bike p0rn this week which I’m sure has been great for Kris!

I Almost Did

I almost worked out last night.  That’s not quite the same as actually working out though is it?  You guys.  I was so tired yesterday.  And even though I went to bed at a reasonable time, I’m equally as tired today.  Levi is almost five months old and on a good night he still gets up twice to eat.   On a bad night (like all of last week when he had a cold and couldn’t breathe through his nose), he’s up 4-6 times (not to eat, just to get replugged with his pacifier).  I haven’t had a decent night’s sleep in almost five months.  It’s catching up to me.  When I was on maternity leave I could sleep in late or take a nap and be human again.  Back at work = no more naps and now that I’m two months back at work it is definitely catching up to me.  I AM SO TIRED.  Even worse is the last two nights I’ve taken it out on the kids and snapped and yelled at them at bed time.  I just want them in bed, sleeping, so I can finally have some down time.  Of course then I just feel awful when they are in bed because of how I treated them.

Anyway, how did I almost work out last night?  I got the kids in bed, put on my work out clothes, grabbed a water bottle and went to the basement.  I turned on the elliptical and the TV (no cable box downstairs so it’s either Netflix streaming on the Wii or DVDs down there).  I went to turn on the DVD player so I could continue to watch a movie I started during a workout last week.  Except the DVD player would not turn on.  I checked that it was plugged in to the outlet strip like the TV, Wii, Stereo and Elliptical is.  It was.  And that is where my resolve gave out.  Instead of figuring out what was wrong, I went upstairs, took off my shoes, laid down on the couch and watched the season premiere of Glee.  When that was over I went upstairs and went to bed.  At 9:45pm. (BTW, Kris went down there and played with it and ended up plugging it in to a different port on the outlet strip and it was working again.  It took him approximately 90 seconds to fix.  I didn’t even have the mental fortitude to do that much troubleshooting.  I was just completely shot.)

I plan to work out tonight and tomorrow night to get my two in for this week.  I also plan to sleep in a little bit tomorrow morning as I’m working from home in the morning so I don’t have to get up as early.  And this weekend, with not much planned, I will get a nap or two in.  I have to catch up on some sleep.  I’m so emotional (crying at the drop of a hat), crabby and depressed that I’m failing right now as a mother, an athlete (*snort*) and most certainly as a wife.  My poor, deeply neglected husband.  Sigh.


Fail!  I did not get a workout in this weekend.  We were busy!  OK, that could be said for Saturday.  Kris had to work in the morning and then in the afternoon he and I went on a date (our first since Levi was born) and went to the Gopher – USC football game.  It was a wonderful afternoon together, complete with hand holding!  And when we went to go pick up the kids we stuck around for a couple hours visiting with Nana and her friends.  We didn’t get home until almost 10pm and by that time I was not going to get a workout in.  And yesterday was, well, just lazy.  We had church and a visit from my dad but after that it was simply family time watching football, playing with the kids and spending time together.  I could have got a workout in yesterday but I didn’t.  That was completely my fault.  Please don’t throw stones!  I’ll get in a workout tomorrow night.  I promise!

Did you know that September 2010 is the first ever National Childhood Obesity Awareness Month?  I didn’t until today.  It’s sad we have to have a whole month dedicated to this.  Our country is so out of control as a whole that this generation of kids could be the first to have an expected life span that is shorter than their parents?  We’re literally killing our kids.  Disgraceful.  Kris and I try to eat healthy foods, have vegetables and fruit daily, exercise often and tell our kids exactly why we’re exercising (to keep us healthy – it doesn’t have anything to do with vanity – no talk of being fat or not fat, no talk of sizes, it’s all about the health aspect).

MacDaddy had a good post today about this topic which is what brought this to my attention.  I don’t know that we’ll take advantage of the 24 Hour Fitness offer he mentions at the end of his post but Kris and I will for sure keep doing the things we’re already doing while also encouraging our kids to exercise (via kids fun runs, outdoor play, etc.) and continually improving the quality of our foods (organic, grass fed beef, pasture raised pork and chicken, locally grown produce, whole wheat pastas, etc.).

Night 2

So far, this accountability thing is working.  I know it’s still new.  The novelty is bound to wear off.  But whatever.  Maybe by then it will be a habit, ya know?  Anyway, night 2 is complete.  I was on the elliptical again, this time for 35 minutes.    It’s something at least.  And I had company this time!  Kris was down there playing Wii and James was watching him as was I.  That made the time go much faster!

So, have you heard of Zumba?  I received an e-mail tonight  from Annika’s dance studio saying they’re going to start offering Zumba classes for adults two nights a week and Saturday afternoons.  I’d never heard of it so of course I had to go to YouTube!  Go take a look.  It looks fun although I have little rhythm.  Maybe I should try this out in the privacy of my own home with some of those YouTube videos as my “instructor.”  Kris said it looks like “group clubbing.”  You know, without the sweaty, gross, drunk men hitting on you and stuff.  Ha!