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Saturday, January 27, 2007
 
Still here and still pregnant. I guess I'm not too surprised. When I was pregnant with Annika my OB stripped my membranes on a Thursday and I didn't go into labor until the following Monday evening. That's why I wasn't convinced it would immediately put me into labor. Of course at that time I was 2 cm dilated and now I'm 5cm. Today, I've been having the same type of contractions I've been having for weeks now. I could tell that they've ramped up a bit in intensity (pressure, some cramping, backache) in the last couple weeks which obviously is why I'm so dilated. But they haven't changed at all since before the procedure yesterday. To try and kick start things today we headed to the mall to walk around for a while. They have a play structure there too that Annika was able to burn off some energy on. I was really sore and crampy after those couple hours of being on my feet. We came home and Annika and I took a three hour nap together and now I'm back to feeling normal. It was just the sweetest though when we woke up. Annika snuggled in as close to me as she could so I closed my eyes to rest some more. She told me to open my eyes. Our faces were right next to each other with our noses practically touching. Then she told me "Good morning Sweetheart." I told her that back and then she said "I love you mommy." Then she took her hand and stroked my cheek. Of course I told her that I loved her too and then she repeated both phrases a couple more times. Now if that isn't just one of the absolute best things in the world, I don't know. Man, I just love her so much!

Last night I broke down in tears telling Kris that I didn't want to have this baby. I know that sounds awful but believe me when I say it's not because I don't want this baby. It's because I'm so worried about Annika. I'm worried about her adjusting. I'm worried about how she's going to deal with all the changes. I'm worried about me having enough time with her. I'm just anxious and worried. Kris tried to make me feel better (in that typical male way) by telling me that she'll be fine and stuff. I told him that he wasn't helping. I told him that what I'm feeling is perfectly normal, so I've heard from other moms going from 1 to 2 children, and that I don't know this little baby yet but I do know Annika so I am projecting all my worries and fears and anxiousness on her right now. And that I'm sure after the baby is born I won't be able to imagine our lives without both of them, just like now we can't imagine life without Annika. But right now I'm just worried about her. And then I pulled myself back together and had a lovely rest of the night. I just needed to get those worries and fears out there I guess.

And now I heard Kris and Annika getting out of the bathtub so I have to go. I'm on Annika towel duty.

Posted by Kristina at 1/27/2007 08:42:00 PM



Comments:
Hi there. Yep, normal. I was worried in the same way when Gavin was little and Anily was due any day. Not so worried about it with Jessie, but Gavin was older and I was insane so.. ya know... different situation. Just recently with Ash I was worried about it still. How in the world could I do it all kind of thing. Gotta say, I don't honestly think it is any harder then it was having just Gavin and Jessie. Plus, Ash is just so dang charming and all that. Anyway, I think I'm going to go pass out and dream of the days when Jessie was a baby and I actually got to SLEEP. hehe! Good luck!
 
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