I ran across this quote a while back:

"Babies are bits of star-dust blown from the hand of God." - Larry Barretto, "The Indiscreet Years"

I'm not sure where I found it but I wrote it down and stuck it to the side of my work computer shortly after I found out I was pregnant. Cleaning up my desk today, I found it. I think it's just precious and I've included it over on the side so I'll remember it forever.

Everything here is going well. I went shopping yesterday for a new dressy outfit. Tonight is work's Engineering Week Celebration at the local dinner theater. I wanted something that I could wear a bit longer but I know that I could also start showing any minute now. So, I found a cute skirt in all the new spring colors that has diagonal stripes on it. The best part? It's made of a stretchy fabric (no waistband, just some tiny elastic!) so I should be able to wear it for quite some time! I then bought a tanktop in one of the same new spring colors and a cute little black cardigan and voila! I have an outfit! Of course, it's from my favorite clothing store, New York & Co. I'm hoping I can still wear this cute little outfit for Easter.

I just found this link to Madame Zaritska's psychic readings over at Waiting For Godels blog. She's pregnant too. Anyway, just for fun, I took the little quiz. Here are the results:

What she senses for you
The day you deliver, outside will be cloudy. Your baby will arrive at night.

After a labor lasting approximately 4 hours, your child, a boy, will be born. Your baby will weigh about 8 pounds, 2 ounces, and will be 19-1/2 inches long. This child will have dark brown eyes and be almost bald.

But there is more. I get the impression that there is something in your life that is not yet settled. Something about... something about a name? Ah -- a baby name. Why don't you look here for help with finding the perfect name for your precious child.

So, how much of that do you believe? :) Again, just for fun, I went back to the link and input all the same answers to the questions and got this:

What she senses for you
The day you deliver, outside will be breezy. Your baby will arrive in the evening.

After a labor lasting approximately 8 hours, your child, a boy, will be born. Your baby will weigh about 7 pounds, 3 ounces, and will be 18-1/2 inches long. This child will have dark brown eyes and some blond hair.

But there is more. Although you may feel tired, your pregnancy will be over before you are truly ready to let go of this precious baby you have all to yourself. I sense that you will look back and long for these days. I suggest doing something now to preserve some memories of this time. Many women enjoy making a belly cast? Perhaps you would be interested, too.

I guess she can't make up her mind! At least she was consistent with that boy thing. :)

Lots of things to talk about today! I'm going to list them here:

1 - I had my 2nd doctor appointment today. I heard the heartbeat for the first time! She didn't time it exactly but said it was about twice my heart rate and was around 130 beats per minute. This is one squirmy baby in there though because we were only able to hear it for about 10 seconds before it ran away from us and we couldn't find it anymore. Already giving me grief, this baby is! :) Checked the polyps and the doctor doesn't think there's anything to worry about there. My weight went up ever so slightly. At my very first appt I was 156, at my second one I was 152 and now I'm 157. I should start gaining some weight here in the next few weeks. Not that I want to or anything. :)

2 - I threw up this morning. I so thought I was done with this since I hadn't vomited for about 2-3 weeks. I think I let my stomach get too empty this morning and to the bathroom I went! I ate my breakfast right after that and have felt fine since. I just have to keep eating!!

3 - I'm not wearing my wristbands anymore! Maybe I should with this morning's activities, but I feel fine and am not nauseous anymore so I haven't wore them yesterday or today. Hopefully this lasts!

4 - I finally went back to the gym yesterday! I only walked for about 20 minutes but even that felt good. Of course, it's been so long since I've been there, and my lock is new, and I seem to forget everything these days, that I forgot the combination to my lock and had to have it cut off! Oh well. I didn't really care. I'll just get a new one. I'm going to try and get to the gym about 3-4 times per week. I mainly am going to be walking on the treadmill and maybe swim once a week too. I'm not going to be doing anything real strenuous, but exercise and being fit can help with labor and recovery.

So, that's my news!

Kris and I received our first baby present on Monday night. I was at my monthly Pampered Chef training meeting and one of my PC friends, Karen, gave us the book Love You Forever. Wasn't that a sweet thing to do? Karen has a (almost) 2 year old herself. I haven't read it yet because I've heard it's good and sweet and touching and since I cry at the drop of a hat these days, I'm holding off. Thank you Karen!!

I really do cry at the silliest things; commercials, "reality" tv shows, just random stuff. Kris often looks at me like "what are you crying about now?" I just respond with "silly hormonal pregnant woman." Hee!

Today we are 12 weeks pregnant. So, does anyone know - do I start the second trimester today or next week when the 12th week is done? I think I have to go find that out.

There is one thing that is really starting to get on my nerves. Wasting my money. Yep, I'm wasting my money. Every day I buy lunch at the cafeteria. I know I could bring my own from home but making myself lunch in the morning just isn't happening. It's all I can do to grab an orange and some yogurt for later. So, back to the cafeteria. Each day I buy lunch and without fail, each day I throw away perfectly good food. Why? Because I am repulsed by the thought of eating it. How is it that not 30 minutes earlier I picked up that food, decided "hey, this is something I could eat," bought it and here I am throwing it away because I. Just. Can't. Do. It. (eat it, that is) So, today, I'm throwing away perfectly good ham lunch meat because I can't bring myself to eat it. Ate the fresh pineapple (yum!!), cheese soup with popcorn, milk and potato chips, but can't do the ham. So weird! And aggravating!

One week from today is my next OB appointment. I'm already getting nervous that they won't be able to find the heartbeat again. If they can't, then I get an ultrasound which would be cool (provided that shows us the heartbeat, of course), but I can't imagine the worry of waiting for the ultrasound knowing they still could not find a heartbeat. Please, please God, let the heartbeat - #1 be there, and #2 be easy to find. Thank you.

I still have the ugliest, biggest bruise on my arm from where they drew blood last Friday. The sucker was bright purple all weekend and is only now beginning to fade to light purple, green and yellow. Disgusting, huh? Yeah, nice of me to share.

Long time, no update. Sorry about that. I was in training all last week and didn't really have much to say. However, now I do! The following paragraph may be TMI for some people. Read with caution.

I had my first OB appt last Friday, the 6th. I saw a nurse practitioner who had just gotten back from maternity leave herself two weeks earlier. My first impressions of the office are very good. They have both OB/GYNs and CNM's (Certified Nurse Midwives) so I can have either. Kris and I haven't decided which one we'd like to go with. Anyway, back to the details! They took all my vitals - blood pressure was good, urine was clean (of protein and whatever else they look for) and they took some blood. They said they'd only call with results if they were out of the ordinary. The nurse practioner went over this big binder they gave me. It had info in there on everything from pregnancy to infant care to crib safety and more. There was also some information on tests they could run and the pre-registration for for the hospital. I have to have that done by 34 weeks. Got some time on that one. After going through all that she had me hop up on the table to do some internal checking around. She said everything looks and feels just as it should for being 10 weeks along although she did find some polyps she wants a doctor to check out. Then she used the doppler machine to listen to the heartbeat. After trying for a while, she just couldn't find it. She told me not to worry, that everything else is looking just fine and that my pelvic bone is still hiding most of my uterus and the doppler just can't get down that far. So, I have an appt to go back in two weeks. At that time, the doctor will check the polyps to make sure they are the benign kind and listen for the heartbeat again. I should have grown enough by then that they should be able to hear it externally. If they can't for some reason, they will order an ultrasound. So, bottom line? I needed that heartbeat and didn't get it. Doesn't mean it's not there, just means I didn't get the reassurance that I needed. So...please don't tell anyone yet.

So, there, that's my update. I'll try to update more often now that I'm not at training.